Imagine a little girl that has 2 brothers. Imagine her being 7 years old and sitting for hours at the computer watching adoption videos, reading blogs, and sobbing uncontrollably. I remember this was my daughter 4 years ago. What did I do to influence this? Absolutely nothing. As her mother, I can take no credit for her heart. For God breaking her heart for what breaks His. There are so many things I have forgotten over the years, the small details get lost in everyday “stuff”. That’s why I love having boxes full of special things. Items that will always mean something and always bring back a memory.
My husband walked down the other day and said to me, “Do you remember this?”, with tears in his eyes. He put this on the table…
I cried as I read it again and again and was reminded of our sweet Sydney giving me this handwritten note 4 years ago. I am amazed, not by her. It is not about our daughter. (By the way, she is the first one to tell you that. It is about our God.) It is about the calling He put on her life. It is about her continually praying that we would adopt. After three long years, we said yes. Yes, Lord, we will become parents to an orphan because it is convenient to us now. As we walked our adoption journey, it became more evident that it was not about us. It is all about Him. It is about loving Him so much that you are willing to step out in faith. Step out and do something that doesn’t make sense to the world. As a result, my home is full of loud screams and constant laughter and chatter most hours of the day. And tonight as I held my sweet Helen, who I rock to sleep each night because it is what she needs from me, I was reminded of the great love my Heavenly Father has for me. I was reminded of what I would have missed out on if our family had not said yes. And I was reminded of how He answered my Sydney’s prayers. I am thankful she was so persistent, that she was willing to step out and say YES, LORD, and thankful He chose me to be the mother to these two African children.
I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. John 14:18
PS. Be on the lookout for a new jewelry item just in time for Valentine’s Day!!!
Precious!!